Am I alone...

sorry for the previous incomplete blog... i accidently or out of habit saved the stuff...anyways, i was saying that i have often experienced being left alone by people whom i considered friends. Perhaps i am just blowing mountain out of a mole hill but i couldn't help thinking about it today. I am feeling miserable and don't know how to cheer myself up.

Sometimes i think that some of us in the entire population of the world are born to be loners. its unfair but who said life was always fair. Due to my dad's tranferable job, i could never form a permanent friendship. Every two years, it was new locality, new school, new people...err...friends. By the time i got close to a friend, it was time to pack the bags n move on. I hated it...but a kid never has any say on these matters...afterall its my dad's work. Finally, we settled in Bombay (i don't like its present baptised Mumbai so i stick by the old name).I love my city, even though it is overcrowded, filthy, hectic and so on. It has its own charm. So now you would think that at last my travels have come to an end. But the answer is no, negative, nada. Staying in the same surburb, i shifted twice. This also passed on to my college, where i did my junior college in one college and degree from another. After graduation, i felt ok so now there is no chance of me going anywhere. Now i will have be staying in the same house for more than two years and i won't have to again adjust myself to a new environment. But how wrong was i.

For my Post Graduation, i got admission in a college in Chennai. I had a choice of taking the admission, but did i reject the admission call... no. After traveling like a nomad for so long, i realised that i have become used to it. Gosh! that was a terrible encounter with the truth. The truth which i denied accepting. I realised that i sort of enjoyed getting away, running away from situations before they became ugly. And then the decision was made to study in chennai for a year. Maybe, this was also influencial in my choosing a career in journalism and my love for traveling and exploring new places.
However, this love for traveling comes with a price. The price had to pay and may have to pay for years to come is being alone and become friend of myself...So i have given up hope that i would be able to stay in any place for more than 3 years.

After a tiring morning, which was spent trying to remain awake in the Meida Laws and Ethics class, i had to rush off to do my Key issues project. A couple of group mates and me met up at the college lobby and planned on a strategy by which we could cover two settlements of a tribal community called Narikorravars.

1 p.m. - I reached the settlement in Kotturpuram, Chennai and spent the next three hours collecting data from the self-appointed head of that community. The place was filthy and their condition was pathetic. I could not believe people lived in such a horrendous condition. After we collected enough information, we left for our next settlement based in Thiruvanmiyur.

5 p.m.- we reach the place and ask around to locate the exact place. I was already very tired but had to cover this settlement at all costs, as my group was running out of time. The load would be that much less, if we covered atleast a little bit of the community.

This community lives in a much better condition than the previous one. Though they all are poor and live off by selling beads and ragpicking, their settlement is not filthy. The beads they sell are bought from Delhi and are really very pretty. I could not resist myself and bought two of them...