Am I alone...

sorry for the previous incomplete blog... i accidently or out of habit saved the stuff...anyways, i was saying that i have often experienced being left alone by people whom i considered friends. Perhaps i am just blowing mountain out of a mole hill but i couldn't help thinking about it today. I am feeling miserable and don't know how to cheer myself up.

Sometimes i think that some of us in the entire population of the world are born to be loners. its unfair but who said life was always fair. Due to my dad's tranferable job, i could never form a permanent friendship. Every two years, it was new locality, new school, new people...err...friends. By the time i got close to a friend, it was time to pack the bags n move on. I hated it...but a kid never has any say on these matters...afterall its my dad's work. Finally, we settled in Bombay (i don't like its present baptised Mumbai so i stick by the old name).I love my city, even though it is overcrowded, filthy, hectic and so on. It has its own charm. So now you would think that at last my travels have come to an end. But the answer is no, negative, nada. Staying in the same surburb, i shifted twice. This also passed on to my college, where i did my junior college in one college and degree from another. After graduation, i felt ok so now there is no chance of me going anywhere. Now i will have be staying in the same house for more than two years and i won't have to again adjust myself to a new environment. But how wrong was i.

For my Post Graduation, i got admission in a college in Chennai. I had a choice of taking the admission, but did i reject the admission call... no. After traveling like a nomad for so long, i realised that i have become used to it. Gosh! that was a terrible encounter with the truth. The truth which i denied accepting. I realised that i sort of enjoyed getting away, running away from situations before they became ugly. And then the decision was made to study in chennai for a year. Maybe, this was also influencial in my choosing a career in journalism and my love for traveling and exploring new places.
However, this love for traveling comes with a price. The price had to pay and may have to pay for years to come is being alone and become friend of myself...So i have given up hope that i would be able to stay in any place for more than 3 years.